Week Thirty-Six - The Dark Night of the Soul

Psalm 88 is a desperate psalm. In the throes of the psalmist's soul, anguish and despair ring through every verse. With hands stretched out unto God, his soul cries for answers and release. Such is the sound of lamentation - with no sight of comfort. The psalm contains no resolve, no hopeful phrase - only waiting and anguish.

The dark night of the soul is defined as a deep psychological and spiritual crisis incorporating a loss or redirection of life's meaning, intense inner longing and emptiness, along with stark loneliness. It is usually accompanied by a major shift in thought or a new stage of personal or spiritual growth, as it acts as a spiritual cleansing to remove pride and press the individual toward mature faith.

While it is a painful and dark experience, the child of God need not fear, for such is the fellowship of His suffering, the purging that removes pride, and the place where crucifixion is better understood.

In Galatians 2:20, Paul gives this summation, "I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me."

The idea that one would come to this level of spiritual dedication and understanding by walking a flower-strewn path is never taught in Scripture. Instead, God speaks of pruning, refining by fire, and the putting away of self and the flesh. It is a cutting process that produces deeper love and experiences deeper understanding of God’s love.

Oh, friend, if this is your season, don't waste it. Cry out to God. Ask your questions. Bear your heart to Him and count your suffering as your closest walk with your Saviour - your Gethsemane.

What came out of Jesus' garden prayer? Renewed and energized faith. Determination to obey His Father at all costs. The laying aside of self to humble service for others. A deeper understanding of His holy purpose.

And in you, this season will produce fruit; never doubt it. God will not leave you there forever. It is only a season getting you ready for the praise found in Psalm 89.

P.S. If you are in a dark place and your soul is singing Psalm 88, I invite you to my book, Build That Wall, describing my personal journey and what the dark night of my soul taught me. It is available in eBook and paperback.

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Week Thirty-Five - It's Shocking

I sat stunned as I read the first verse of Psalm 79. Shocked because it was so upfront and in-your-face, so current to today. It reads, "O God, the heathen are come into thine inheritance."

Israel opened the doors, and reaped the consequences. Their temple was defiled, the city laid waste, saints were martyred, and the glory of God's name was torn down. Truth lay trampled in the streets. Such is the way of the heathen. There is no respect for others or God Almighty. They devour and cast away. They do not build up.

This shocking truth is right before our eyes today. The Western world opened the doors and allowed the heathen in, and now we reap the consequences. Our churches are being burned, our cities are full of rubbish and filth, the streets are unsafe, and saints are martyred around the world. God's name and His truth are mocked and ignored. The influence of the heathen is written too boldly across our nations, in our homes, and in our schools. We are being torn down.

As Asaph prays in Psalm 79, he recognizes Israel's sin and pleads for God to deliver and purge for His name's sake (Vs 8-9). Only God can remove the heathen now. Israel is a sighing prisoner appointed to die. They have no strength except the Lord; by His power, deliver them.

This shocking truth is repeated in our lives. When we open the door, the heathen come in, and with them comes darkness, not light. 

Boundaries are not unbiblical. God warned Israel, just as He warned us, to keep our homes and lives pure and separate, and have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness. But we dance on like it doesn't matter, as if tolerance were a virtue, while we blindly overlook the evil growing around us. It is shocking how blind we have grown. There is always a price to pay for living opposite to God's commands. This is true for individual lives and for nations. 

Equally, there is always grace and mercy for those who think on their "ways, and turn. . unto thy testimonies" (Psalm 119:59). Only God can cleanse our lives, and only God can cleanse a nation. Our part is to pray for our nation and for our lives to return to God's praise.

It is a shocking place to which we have arrived, but the God of all grace remains at our side. He can and will deliver His people when they confess and call upon Him.

Asaph finishes by praying, "So we thy people and sheep of thy pasture will give thee thanks for ever: we will shew forth thy praise to all generations" (Psalm 79:13).

So my friend,  join me in prayer today. "If my people which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land" (2 Chronicles 7:14).

Week Thirty-Four - The Things That Matter To Me

I've had an amazing bit of time this August. After getting back from the States in early July, Tom and I made a list of things around the house and in ministry we wanted to accomplish and things that needed tending. We knew we couldn't start on our lists until August, because our July was fully booked. But we made our list and waited. 

The first week of August, we started. He had his list. I had mine containing things that mattered to me. But God interrupted our plans. Tom was called back to the States for a family funeral, leaving me here by myself for a little over two weeks. Amazingly, Tom got his list completed before he left, but my list, of course, of things that mattered to me, was much longer.

I sat down and made myself a simple chart with tick boxes for things completed and spaces to record dates and notes. I love getting organized like that! And I started with great zeal! 

In my journal I recorded, "I asked the Lord last night to tell me what to focus on today. This morning He said, "All the little one-off jobs." So that's where I started.

All the little things went wild. I booked quotes for roofing, a built-in wardrobe, driveway repair, and a new front door. Things were getting done: phone calls and work on upcoming teaching and seminars were underway; my little chart already had several elaborate ticks! I had appointments with friends, deep housecleaning was getting done, and even a jigsaw puzzle!

I was amazed at how God was helping me accomplish the things that mattered to me. He gave me time in His Word, great moments of prayer, and Spirit-filled writing. He energized my mind to stay focused when things didn't go smoothly. 

Let me share one crazy thing - I had booked the man to replace the flat roof for the Friday. We had agreed while he was here, and I had it written in on my chart. Friday came, but he did not. I wondered why, and so I looked back at my WhatsApp correspondence. I had inadvertently canceled! Thinking I was messaging the man I wanted to decline, I ended up sending the message to the wrong person.

I immediately messaged to express my regret and apologized for the mistake, asking if we could reschedule. Which, he did - he came on Monday.

But that sudden change threw me off. I had to sit down and restart my day. My plan was gone. I slumped into my corner chair and prayed, asking the Lord what was next and how to order my now empty day.

I got up, did some personal perspective training, prayed some more, finished the hemming on a wedding dress, went shopping for a new oven, got the neighbour's help with repairing the guttering downpipe, refreshed my front garden bushes, ordered new ceiling fans for the offices, and ended the day working in the garden and putting together my new egg chair, even completed my jigsaw puzzle.

I am always amazed at how the Lord knows the things that matter to me. And not only that, but He helps me see things accomplished and makes His presence and interest so real that I do not feel alone - I have a God who cares about the things that matter to me.

And so do you!

Week Thirty-Three - Where Are You Headed?

A common question when meeting new people is, "Where did you come from?" The answer can be very telling because we tend to emulate our background through our accent, food preferences, and even our worldview.

For example, I don't have to talk long here in England before they know I'm not native to the island. Nearly always, they pin me as American or Canadian. 

Next, they ask where I am from, and most of them have never heard of my little hometown of Marshfield, Missouri. Some don't even know where Missouri is, so I mention Kansas City and St. Louis, and they nod like they understand. Then, they will ask why I am here. That gives me a good chance to speak for the Lord. 

This all helps to give context and open conversation, but as I was reading Psalm 87, I thought of a better question. Before I give it to you, this little Psalm is one of the songs for the sons of Korah. It is short and a bit hard to understand, but it is basically a psalm about Zion. Verse two reads, "The Lord loveth the gates of Zion more than all the dwellings of Jacob."

Zion originally referred to a specific hill - the Temple Mount - but it became a poetic name for Jerusalem. It is also sometimes used for the whole land of Israel. The psalm sings that to have been born there, to be a citizen of Zion, is a great blessing. It appears to be the hometown of the psalmist. This psalm would have been sung as a foregoing psalm, one they sang as they journeyed to Jerusalem for special days.

So the better question would be not, "Where did you come from?" but "Where are you going?"

Oh, friend, where we came from matters little compared to where we are heading. The city of God is our destination, the city where glorious things are spoken and the love of God abides, where our Saviour awaits, and our mansion stands ready. Where we are headed is what really matters, and it determines so much about how we walk and what we expect. 

In our Wednesday night Bible study, Bro. McHenry expounded on 1 John 3:1-3, noting the deep love of our Father, the privilege of being called sons, and the hope we have of being like Him, with all sin and pain gone from our lives. That is where we are heading. Verse three makes this point, "And every man that hath this hope in him purifieth himself, even as he is pure." 

We have the hope of meeting our Lord in the heavenly Zion, so preparedness must be our focus. 

Just as the pilgrims journeyed toward Jerusalem for the feast days, they sang songs, cleansed themselves, and prepared for the sacrifices; we, too, have a forward expectation and reason for rejoicing.

Let's not focus on where we came from, but turn our eyes to where we are going and be ready to enter the city the Lord loves and has prepared for us- Zion, the city of our God!

Week Thirty-Two - The Enemy of Jehovah

Psalm 83 is one of those "kill 'em, Lord" psalms, psalms where the writer is asking God to annihilate the enemy with the harshest of means. 

Asaph cries out for God not to be silent, not to hold His peace, because the enemy is lifting his head against Jehovah. By crafty counsel, the enemy seeks to remove Israel until it is remembered no more. They have joined forces with enemies of old, and even distant relatives, who desire to take the house of God.

Asaph pours out instruction for God to make them like stubble, burn them like wood or wild fires on the mountain, to persecute them by the tempest and frighten them by storms until their faces are ashamed. He's serious about their removal.

Then, Asaph makes two merciful requests. 

1. That they might seek God's face (vs 16).
2. That they might honor Jehovah as supreme (vs 18).

So, Asaph's prayer has two parts. First, he prays that the enemy would be stopped.

Many of us are praying similar prayers today. The enemy of Jehovah is raging. Fear does grip our hearts, and we may feel helpless to calm the situation, but prayer is never wasted. We know the prayers of God's people will be answered. They rise to Heaven with a special scent when God's people are persecuted.  So keep praying for God to intervene.

Then, Asaph inserts the two merciful requests - 1. That they might seek God's face and, 2. That they would recognize God as supreme.

Our prayers, like those of Asaph, can get focused on praying that the enemy would be thwarted because we want the fear and struggle to stop. But equally important is this second point - that they would seek God and recognize Him as supreme. And how would they?

God may reveal Himself to them in power, or even through dreams, as we read in the Bible. He may use the testimonies of God's people, but most often, He is revealed through our reaction to persecution and by answer to our prayers. 

Think about this in light of your prayer life. Are you praying for the enemy to seek and see God as sincerely and urgently as you are praying for them to be removed? Would God's mercy and Holy Spirit conviction channel to them through your behavior toward your enemy?

Those who oppose God are out there, and as much as we should resist them through prayer and legal means, we should equally be praying for God to intervene in their lives. Why? Because God is rich in mercy (Ephesians 2:4) to all who call upon Him. (Romans 10:12). He is not willing that any should perish (2 Peter 3:9) - not even our enemies.

Week Thirty-One - Not Set Aright

I was a rebellious teenager. I won't go into great detail, but suffice it to say I was a grief of mind to my parents and wound up being a grief of mind to myself in the end. Had the Lord not stepped into my life, I'm sure I would have continued down the path to my own destruction.

I was reading Psalm 78 today, and the writer, Asaph, states that the hearts of the children of Israel were not set aright. They were rebellious. He recounts their failings before God, saying they refused, forgot, spoke again, believed not, lied unto him, turned back, tempted, provoked, dealt unfaithfully, and limited God. Sounds like a rebellious heart to me.

But God? He continued leading them safely to the Promised Land, forgave, was compassionate, remembered they were only flesh, showed His strength, provided flesh and water for them, and in verse 72 we read, "fed them according to the integrity of his heart and guided them by the skilfulness of his hands."

When our hearts are not set aright, we rebel, biting even the hand that feeds us. Thinking we have the right to complain about our situation, we act like Israel and forget God. But He never forgets us. Even in our rebellion, He works to draw us home through kind compassion and just punishments. He is a faithful Father who works with His children through love and integrity.

Rebellion is stubbornness. It is saying you are right and must have things done your way. There seems to be no place in the rebellious heart for obedience unless it is profitable to the desired outcome. No amount of lying, deceit, or conniving is beyond the use of the rebellious heart. And when caught, more lies and more deceit are used in an attempt to cover guilt. It is a vicious circle that leads to a hardness of heart; a heart not set aright. And rebellion isn't reserved for teenagers!

But when God enters, when His compassion and love shine, the hardness melts away, and the first part of this long chapter becomes the new reality. People whose hearts are set aright are described this way - they hear the words of God, wisdom proceeds from their mouths, they care for the next generation, teaching them the ways of God and uplifting Him because of "the wonderful works that he hath done" (Vs. 4). (These are the same works, by the way, that produced rebellion in the heart not set aright.)

But the heart set aright declares God's glory to the children and points them to hope - "that they might set their hope in God, and not forget the works of God, but keep his commandments" (Vs 7).

Hope or destruction are derived by the set of your heart. So today's question is: Where is your heart set? What work is God doing in your life, and how are you responding?    

Week Thirty - Treasures in Darkness

Let's look today at Isaiah 45:2-3. It reads, "I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron: And I will give thee the treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places, that thou mayest know that I, the Lord, which call thee by thy name, am the God of Israel."

This was one of the verses I claimed when the dark night of the soul had me in its grip. My depression was almost tangible as I sat in fear wondering: What was going to happen to me? Where would I find release? Where could I place my hope? How long would this last? These unanswerable questions haunted my soul. Only God's Word could reach me, and even then, it often took a huge amount of blind faith to come to any rest.

This was the first place where I began noticing the I Will statements in the Bible. We've talked many times about David's I Wills - I will praise, I will sing, I will trust - but here in Isaiah, the I wills are promises directly from God. He says:

I will go before thee.
I will make crooked places straight.
I will break the gates of brass.
I will cut the bars of iron.
I will give you treasures in darkness.
I will give you hidden riches in secret places.

Treasures in darkness? Hidden riches in secret places? All the darkness I was experiencing held treasure? It seemed hard to believe back then, but today I can attest to the truth of this promise. Had I never experienced the darkness and the secret places, my walk with God would not be as close or as sweet as it is today. The depth of my relationship with God was hollowed out during those dark times. He went with me. He did make crooked places straight, and He did release me from the gates of brass and bars of iron. And He did it in His time - the time when He knew I had come to understand the value of my valley journey.

True riches and treasures are not those that shine openly, but those hidden in the soul: personal fellowship and intimate encounters with the God who knows our name. They are that calm assurance that comes when the soul rests in the Word and confidence built by knowing God is sovereign, loving, and wise. 

God's promises aren't reserved for the treasures that come after the darkness; they are also treasures IN darkness. When God's Word comes alive in your heart, when light shines into your soul, when you see Him at work on your behalf, these, too, are treasures of darkness. They shine, pointing us to continued hope on our journey.

So if you are walking in the shadows, remember there cannot be a shadow without light, and God is that light. He will keep His promises, and in His time, you will know the treasures of darkness, too. So lift your face toward Him, keep going, and trust that He is right beside you.